my BLACK and WHITE life

It rained quite heavily today. It was dark, cold, humid. Somehow, it also reflected the feeling I had in my heart. All I wanted to do was to hide myself away from the crowd and just reflect. Nothing seem right to me. I could not concentrate in class, could not write my GP essay, jokes were not funny and people around me seem like they had no common sense at all. But apparently I looked so stone during normal days, Jia Yi said there was nothing different about me today. Oh well, lesser people know about it, lesser people to worry about me (if there are even such people around).

Don mentioned to me the other day that whenever he felt stressed or unhappy, he would hear this song and he would feel fine after that. I tried listening and yeah, it does help.

Five Loaves and Two Fishes
Corrinne May

A little boy of thirteen
was on his way to school
He heard a crowd of people laughing
and he went to take a look
Thousands were listening
to the stories of one man
He spoke with such wisdom,
even the kids could understand

The hours passed so quickly
the day turned to night
Everyone was hungry
but there was no food in sight
The boy looked in his lunchbox
at the little that he had
He wasn't sure what good it'd do
there were thousands to be fed

But he saw the twinkling eyes of Jesus
the kindness in His smile
and the boy cried out
with the trust of a child
he said:

"Take my five loaves and two fishes
Do with it as you will
I surrender
Take my fears and inhibitions
All my burdens, my ambitions
You can use it all
to feed them all"

I often think about that boy
when I'm feeling small
and I worry that the work I do
means nothing at all

But every single tear I cry
is a diamond in His hands
and every door that slams in my face
I will offer up in prayer

So I'll give you every breath that I have
Oh Lord, you can work miracles
All that you need is my "Amen"

Take my five loaves and two fishes
Do with it as you willI surrender
Take my fears and inhibitions
All my burdens, my ambitions
You can use it all
I hope it's not too small

I trust in you
I trust in you

Take my five loaves and two fishes
Do with it as you will
I surrender
Take my fears and inhibitions
All my burdens, my ambitions
You can use it all
no gift is too small

Thanks Don :)